Messy Mind

What a mess!  My home office, which is also where my clothes closet is located, is a disaster zone.  Papers in piles, files shoved in random places, including on the floor, clothes strewn on my chair, and stacks of our years worth of our children’s’ school artwork everywhere.  This room looks like a scene from Hoarders.

One day I walked into the home office to hang some clothes up in my closet.   It had been a stressful day.  Not only was I agitated about the current problems, I was also beating myself up by dwelling on my past mistakes and poor choices.

As I started placing the clothes in the closet, a rack came crashing to the floor.  It could no longer handle the weight of my clothes and clutter.  I backed out of my closet to sit on my chair, only to have it full of sweaters and jackets that I had not stored away.  I looked at the mess in my closet and the disorganization of my office.  I felt like everything was crashing in on me.  I could not focus.  I was drowning.

Fortunately, my wife was there to sit and listened to me vent.  Using the tools that have been given to me over the years, I was able to Pause, Breathe, and return to the Present.

Time for Action.

I started organizing the office.  I didn’t look at the whole mess, but instead I focused on one area at a time.  Prioritizing what I should keep and discarding the rest.  After finishing this section, I moved to the next.  One step at a time.

Organizing the environment around me also helped me get my mind back on track.  I can prioritize my current issues, focus on what I can do to address them, and come up with a plan of action.  My mistakes of the past need to be recognized as mind clutter.    I shouldn’t dwell on the past, but instead keep the lessons learned from previous bad decisions and discard the useless clutter.  They only get in the way of the Present.     

The office is more organized now.  It’s not completely there, but I can now walk into the room without feeling overwhelmed.  Progress, not perfection.

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